Results, reflections and what it all means

A few weeks ago, I wrote about my experience with the gallium scan at Stanford and the procedure I had done. What I did not write about were the results and what it means for my future.

They were not able to use any samples from the biopsies taken from my pancreas. Apparently that is common because the needle they had to use is so small and the area was so hard to get to. There were just not enough cells in the sample. They will have to try again in 6 months to a year to be able to biopsy again. The main reason I have to wait so long to have the procedure again is my Dr. is afraid I am not strong enough at this point. The pros do not out weigh the cons. He feels I would end up in hospital for several weeks after and my health would decline.

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What they did find was I do have several small tumors (too small to biopsy at this time) as well as moderate chronic pancreatitis. Now I get to drastically alter my diet for both issues. If I don’t alter my diet I will end up very sick and not able to eat at all. I would then be hospitalized and be put back on TPN or be tube fed. Changing my diet should mean less time in the hospital. I still have and will have lots of pain when I eat and I do have to take pain medicine, but as long as I stick to the diet I am much better.

The diet I have to follow is not fun and I no longer get to eat out. I had to cut out all dairy, sugar, gluten, soy, and nuts of any kind or in any form. Had to cut out as much fat as I can (no fried food) no red meat, pork, chicken & most turkey. I can have some fish, but no shellfish because I am allergic. I can’t have tropical fruit, citrus, tomatoes, avocados and anything in the cabbage family. Also have to be carful with beans and all vegies have to be cooked well. I can have a few eggs here and there. I also have to be carful with potatoes (no skin on them) and minimize how much white rice I have (brown is preferable).

Seems pretty restrictive huh LOL… Well it is, but I am learning to work with it. When I explain to people how I eat just to simplify it I say that I eat a vegan, GF diet with no nuts. It is more complicated than that, but people seem to be able to grasp and accept that a little better.

The other thing my GI specialist told me no more over the counter pain medicine. He said it will aggravate my condition and he wants to know exactly what I am taking at all times. He went as far as to put in my chart allergies to ibuprofen and Tylenol products. Just so no other Dr. would order them for me if I were hospitalized.

He also put me back on octreotide injections to help control the Carcinoid Syndrome symptoms. This has helped greatly. It has made it so I am able to get back to doing some of the things I use to. Things like cleaning house and playing with my youngest daughter. It has made it so I am not as sick all the time.

I am grateful for this even if it s just a few days out of the week. I am not as well as I have been in the past. He explained to me that this is chronic and progressive. It is something I just have to accept. I should enjoy the good days and rest on the bad days. I should not dwell on how awful this disease is and how it is robbing my health and me of time.

So my focus now is one getting stronger and make every day count. We do struggle with bills and trying to make ends meet. That’s the other thing being terminal and in and out of hospital is expensive and well bills pile up. Pretty sure we will not be taking a vacation anytime soon or ever. I had wanted to be able to see my mom and her family again, but don’t think that’s going to happen. At least we have social media LOL…

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5 responses to “Results, reflections and what it all means

  1. Reading about what you are going through makes me sad. I admire your attitude to do all you can to stay as strong as you can.

  2. Thinking of you… ❤

  3. Wanda Holmes

    My heart has been deeply touched by you. Your determination is paramount in the lives of the people who’s paths cross with yours. I am blessed to be one of them.

  4. Hi Dani! My wife Heather and I are thinking of you and hope that everything turns out okay. We had a quick question and was wondering if you could email me when you have a free moment. Thanks for your help. cvonstjames AT gmail DOT com

  5. stay positive Dani!