Monthly Archives: September 2011

Photo Shoot of My Tree

I love nature.

I don’t get to spend much time out in it, for one reason or another. I love to take photos of anything I find interesting. This past weekend I was out weeding the yard. I don’t get to do this often & like always I over did it, but loved every minute of it.

I started to look at the tree and then I started taking photos of it in hopes what I saw I could share it with anyone who would be interested. I know a tree isn’t very interesting they are everywhere, but this one speaks to me & I wanted to share its story.

So enjoy..


Symbolism and the Praying Mantis

This morning I walked outside & saw a Praying Mantis one of these on one of my roses.

We have always seen lots of these around where we live & I have loved watching them. They are very purposeful and never make a move unless they are positive it will be successful. I also have worked in many exotic pet stores & took care of & sold them. However, I have never bothered to look up the symbolism. Until today.

According to WickiAnswers:
Praying Mantis Meanings in the Realms of Animal Symbolism
The mantis comes to us when we need peace, quiet and calm in our lives. Usually the mantis makes an appearance when we’ve flooded our lives with so much business, activity, or chaos that we can no longer hear the still small voice within us because of the external din we’ve created.

After observing this creature for any length of time you can see why the symbolism of the praying mantis deals with stillness and patience. The mantis takes her time, and lives her life at her own silent pace.
Now my life like so many of our lives is full of chaos & we are so busy we neglect to slow down & think about things. Since I was diagnosed with a rare & incurable cancer, I have been searching for answers trying to simplify my life & find more peace, quiet & calm. Reading about the Praying Mantis I know I need to find these things. The trick is how to achieve this in our lives.

Having a special needs child and or serious illness our lives will never be as calm, peaceful or as quiet as we would like. I think the only times I can find these things is early in the morning when everyone is still asleep or late at night when the family is sleeping. My favorite time is in the middle of the night after I have given PA her drink and she is lying in my arms sleeping. She is so peaceful & sometimes sit there holding her for an hour or more.

Since having her I do not think I have had more than a few nights where I have gotten more than four hours of sleep at a time, on any one given night. Usually PA goes to bed at 8:30 then is up again at about 1:30, & again around 4:30. Now I know this is not conducive to me dealing with cancer & I know that I do not sleep as much as I need to. I know if I did, I would be able to function much better and possibly not be as sick all the time. In fact, my husband tells me all the time to slow down and ask for help.

However I do not know about any of you, but I am not good at asking for help. Before I can think of asking usually, it is easier just to do it and then be told, “You should have asked”. Well yes, I should have, but you could have asked before I actually got up after mentioning it needed to be done. My husband is actually good at asking but many times I have already gotten up and started to do the task & then I get upset when he asks me if I wanted him to do something. I know I need to work on this.

Therefore, my question is how you try to get more peace, quiet & calm into your lives. This is a real question, because I am struggling with this myself. Maybe after seeing some of your comments we can help each other.

The Roses & The Guard

Swinging Cinderella (Wordless Wednesday)

A Day with PA in Pictures and A Few Words

I thought I would do something a little bit different. This is a typical day with PA. Not everything we do together, she does lots with her dad and sister. We try to do things to help with her various developmental needs. We do things a little different from many families with special needs kids, but this works for us right now.
I just thought you would like to see a day with PA my way….In pictures..Enjoy 🙂

This is what I see when I can focus my eyes in the morning.

Then I go check to see what PA has put on her “doll” the Buda.

Before I even wake PA up I need my one vice my Diet Coke.

Mornings are never good for PA so I skipped the getting ready part & went directly for “Ready For School”

On our way out to wait for the bus we walk through the garden to see if there is anything we need to pick.

This starts my time. I usually have lots to do and almost NO time to do it. I am a frazzled mom. I start lots of projects and almost never complete them. I also do try to do housework during this time. Some days I even get to go out and do errands.

Then PA gets home & it is snack time. She has a very narrow range of foods she will eat and this is about it.

We do crafts. Play dough is her favorite. We also do painting and coloring.

We also work on self-help skills. PA is just now getting to where she will put on socks and shoes. She thought her dads black dress socks would go with her Sunday shoes. Backwards no less. I had to take a picture because it was number 1 an accomplishment for her and number 2 is was so darn cute!

This is what we call “going shopping”. This is how PA will get her food. We have had to make it fun for her and interesting. I picked up this shopping cart last year when we were having issues getting her to eat and it has done the trick. We still have many days a week where she will not eat, but she is doing better.

It’s play time till bed.

Story time before bed.

Then while she gets her story we also do her medicine. We also do this in the morning too. Also includes her nebulizer treatments morning and night as well.

Before bed we also set our clothes out and get her backpack “packpack” as she calls it.

PA Sleeps for a few hours then she is up again. She gets up 2-3 times a night to have her drink, because she won’t eat the right or enough food in one day.

This makes for long days for me. I don’t sleep well and have not since she was born.